especially with the one you love the most.Get me there 'LOVE' the most and you have to get your friendship KILLED! by that i mean, NOT being able to talk to each other, No contact should be done by both parties. :) VERY NICE I MIGHT SAY! *fuckkk no!*

oh OH OH! and catch this,

having a 'CHILDHOOD FRIENDSHIP' getting KILLED! :)

VERY NICE HUH!

how does that sound to you?

GOSH!

cause of this, i think i need to go for more ritual sticks. these are the things that just takes the calm out of me.

im listening to 'Box Full Of Sharp Objects' by The Used.

' Today I fell and felt better

Just knowing this matters

I just feel stronger and sharper

Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful '

-bryantozozo

Im finally in a mood for doing something with this shit page ;) im gonna do something different today with this post, cause im in a talkative, yet lonely mood, I have to change my habits of when im alone and bored, the things i do when im bored -_- SOME of you all know it very well.. YES.. i go for my ritual sticks. but due to a certain incident i am gonna stop my rituals for awhile ;)

SOO! Im gonna do something completely different that what i usually do, like screaming my head off and typing my lungs out on a post, writing a new song and all sorts. today, im gonna have to do this sometime and i think nows the time ;) , im gonna talk about..

oh yes, embrace yourself..

me ;)

i find this very weird but i actually want to do it. HAHA! and its not gonna be just an ordinary 'about me' column you find on friendster and facebook and all those crapholes but im gonna do it differently. but well i'll kick it old school first and start classic ;) OH and another reason i thought i wanted to do this was cause i always enjoy reading about other people and knowing more about em' personal life, interest and all sorts of things. well here goes..

let me start of with.. IM LAME ;D

Im not American/Japanese -_- HAHA! its just a cruel lame joke to trick the gullible, the naive ones.. ;) yes, im mean. hehe. Malaysia is my hometown, Miri, to be specific, and if you got a problem with it, lets solve it ;) as much as i hate visiting the place -_- it has its shares of Up's and Down's ;P estimated number of times that i've gone to Miri, since i was a lil' boy, i think could be a 100 times plus minute. My name is *drumroll please* Bryant, my friends call me Bry, and Bryantozozo is the name you'll find me under most stuff. Its catchy okays! :P I've just turned 17, on June 11th and Man i feel old.. seriously. Most people say that for the sake of saying but I actually do FEEL old -_- my back aches all the time, Im lazy as a cow i tell you! IM in love with music. :) and i can surely say, Music saved my life. I can relate alot to music and i go GAGA over "axes" in which normal people would call a 'Guitar'. ;P I am, what you called, a walkingdictionaryaboutguitarONLY. but im more interested in the Bass guitar. cause it find it more challeging ;) too some, it might be easy, but learning it will make you wanna cry. haha! another interest that falls in the same category as Music would be, Music Technology, the studies about the Technology of music and Recording ;) I can PROUDLY say, I love recording. I listen to different type of Genre's but i think i would say im more into the Funk line, and also the Pop/Punk rock type of shit ;) Im addicted to 'THE USED' now..

enough about that, Now lets get down to what i LOVE,

FOOD ;)

oh yes ;D i wouldnt be over exaggerating if i said 'I cant live without you, food' ;P but i am a addict to food. I love anything that i can consume, anything consumable! haha. But i must warn you, i eat the ALOT.. but i never grow. thats the good part of me :) i seriously eat ALOT ALOT. and you all know it ;P onces my friends named me "Barbryant" cause when i eat, i dont take my time at all ;P i smother the food.

I am weird.. you must know,

*confession time*

my favourite cake would be.. the Chiffon cake, Nothing out of the ordinary rights? just a normal green piece of bread made out of pandan and what not :) but the real reason why i love it, well yes it taste WONDERFUL but the real reason i love it is cause of the CHOKING SENSATION. get shocked! as for some knows, Chiffon cake is very dry, and eating alot of it might cause you to choke on it. some people avoid it, but I love it.. hehehe.. 'OH! there goes bryant being normal' haha. yes, your right :P and I love washing it down, while im having the choking sensation, with anything other than water. IM WEIRD ;p now you know! tell the world ;D

ONE last thing you should know about me, I Social-able ;) I always love making new friends and Im a peacelover ;D it might not look true but i do practice it. Im not shy. AT ALL :p ask around why i am not :P you'll get very disturbing, funny, priceless moment answers.

I am also in love with Cartoons ;) im 17 and i love cartoons, My parents always complain im too old for them, but nothing seperates me from having my daily dosage of Spongebob and Fairy Odd Parents ;D

cosmo's the bomb! ;D

MANY more things i can say, but soo little time. we'll i'll continue soon enough alrights? :) i have a movie waiting down on the dvd player ;D

okays guys! im out. hope you enjoy all this!

-bryantozozo

Let the world fuck itself in the ass, Let my chances fuck and pass,

the best time, to drop the worst lines,

i'm sorry, but i love you.

i puked the days away.

it hurt soo deep that it didnt even bleed,

soo deep i didnt even scream Fuck me,

i remember waiting..,

im walking away from the rain,

I pray i get the chance to make it up to you,

please is ALL i can say cause i really understand i did something wrong,

chances comes once, but the second one comes out of trust,

the only thing that matters is following your heart,

eventually you'll get it right,

we would'nt get it back when we die,

i wish i could be every little thing,

im didnt mean it,

im a junkie for you,

its gonna rain on prom night when your not there with me,

its number 12 of the punches on my face,

my heart is shattered,

sunshine );

on that cold night of december,

the new years hug is the one that got me the most,

the taste of ink is getting old,

catch me of guard, redhanded now im far,

im far from lonely,

knock me out and make me go back to sleep,

to see you in the morning light,

my hands to yours i remember times like that,

i feel the pain, i feel the pain,

i will dance with your feet but not your heart,

i do mean it now,

goodbye farewell to my goddamn shattered heart,

i cant be here without you, soo dont let me go,

if i could have more time, i spend ever single heart beat with you alone tonight,

you know i dont wanna run away but do i really wanna stay,

dont let me go,

kiss me like you did cause my heart has stop beating,

im melting in you eyes like my first time that i caught fire,

you can stand and watch me fall and ofcourse i'll ask for help,

if i could have one wish i wish upon the stars to bring me close to you,

to see your face again, i do anything,

losing you was my biggest fear,

just stay with me now,

you dont know what im going throught,

im on my own,

you said i barely knew you,

it hurt awhile and then i felt like a fool,

i love you more than you ever knew but i guess its not enough for you to stay,

its not easy for me to let you go,

im terrified,

i'll be just fine pretending im not again,

the colour prints of the things we do,

left without a clue,

you'll be my sunshine and i'll be yours too,

a thousand things i can say to you but only one thing you should know,

its all that i've got,

what do i know,

now it seems that i have found nothing at all,

love sick stomachache,

learning how to love while i melt in your eyes,

i wanna her your voice out loud,

knowing nothing is better than nothing at all

i never knew it'll come down to this but just listen to me this once please,

sunshine ): i need you.

*just stay with me now.

im the loser in this situation..

i hate myself.

"All That I've Got"

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me

Off guard, red handedNow I'm far from lonely

Asleep I still see you lying next to me

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else

Would someone please just give me

Hit me,

knock me out

And let me go back to sleep

I can laugh

All I want inside I still am empty

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine

Pretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got

I'll be just finePretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've gotI guess,

I remember every glance you shot me

Un-harmed,

I'm losing weight and some body heat

I squoze so hard

I stopped your heart from beating

So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just finePretending

I'm notI'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got

I'll be just finePretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got

Yeah, it's all that I've got

It's all that I've got

It's all that I've got

It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me

So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine

Pretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got

I'll be just finePretending

I'm notI'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've gotYeah,

it's all that I've got

hey guys. its been another good/bad week for me.

11th-

MY BIRTHDAY! ;D im 17 now. means im more mature and whatnot ;P

i may look old ;) but my minds still running like a 6 years old ;D

it was a great fun day as I had school where all my friends greeted me. I got a surprise in school! ;D gette and sharon got me a really really awesome Balloon with spongebob on it ;D I'll love it until ever single air partical in it is gone. HAHA!

then went home and got ready for band practice. Got picked up by Hamish, James and Sergio and was off to get izzat. Got to Misha's studio when we met up with Yu Foong, Syam and Raymond and then chilled for half an hour before we jammed. it was awesome ;P oh and they sang me the most creative birthday song ever! which goes like this

"Happy birthday to you *small penis!* happy birthday to you...."

we got our songs tight as hell cause we were gonna go record them the next day. we then went to our all time favourite Nasi katok restaurant downstairs. :P were like known there cause we eat there all the time. and the women who takes orders usually have a hard time getting them right, due to US eating alot and we never stop ordering. hahah!

after eating, I then followed syam to send raymond home and then he dropped me off at Virtuoso, where I met up with the music teachers and my pals Ysmael and Aldren :P and then waited for my ride to arrive, thinking it was my parents who were gonna pick me up. While waiting, Syam got back from sending izzat home and i screamed from afar going

while watching his looking around like a fool :P

i went down to talk to him and waited for my ride to arrive and when it did, It was my sister and Weiting who came to pick me up :P I was surprised and then I gave the tightest hug to Weiting cause it was a surprise for me to see her :)

Got back into the car and then asked my sister If Gette could come to dinner with us. and then called gette.

me:"hello? gette? where you?"

gette:"im in capers, having dinner with my family"

me:"bah were gonna go pick you up now :D "

gette:"okays! come up and get me when you reach here okays?"

me:"okays :) buhbye!"

Reached Caper, and my sister was like "You go up and get bridgette okay? and say hi to the parents" and soo all of us ejected from the car and went up to capers and gette came half way to meet us. and they were all talking while we went up, because my sister wanted to say Hi to gette's parents. when i Reached the door. I was walking blindly into it and saw familiar faces. walked somemore and saw Markjay, Jason, and SHARON!??! i ran for my life and was like..

"AHHH! SHARON!!"

and ran to give her a hug.

a cake was delievered as everyone sang ;D I was shocked, Happy, and HAPPY! :p hahahha! and they were like

"blow your candles!"

it was the harderst pieces of shit to blow out -_- after blowing them out, the rekinder again.

Im too lazy to type all of it but I had a Great birthday!

really.

12th-

The band went to JIS to do the recording of anna :P

it was full of fun! as izzat me and hamish did our recording first since syam couldnt come early. soo after finishing our parts and all. me and izzat went to roam the school. after coming back, hamish was like "Bryant, our guitars were'nt in the same key as Syams guitar soo we have to re-record" I couldnt argue with that as the guitar that syam is using is my Ibanez and it never untunes! ;) and its always on standard tuning :) soo i went in to record with syam. the riffs were at the tip of my fingers soo it was easy. :P no struggle and the atmosphere of the place made it easy for recording as it was big and no pressure :P

WELL here is anna rough recorded:

Jamming was awesome yesterday! Its nice having hamish back in Brunei soo we can laydown all our tracks and do Tons of recordings! and Yu Foong is back as well. Soo it was the bomb! ;D and Thursday we'll be moving on to Day 3 of recording.

Pictures ;D

[It's Saturday Night..Grace and I.]

Hey guys! AGAIN, it took me ages to blog again. I just woke up another day to get ached all over my body -_- I hate it.. AS some of you guys know, I had a very long week than just passed. A very Packed with Fear, Fun, and everything possible you can think off. But it turned out well :) OH!

and..

I am attempting to stop smoking.

it'll take me awhile but im willing to, thanks to the support firstly from Jon for helping me, my dear friends ;D who freaking care the shit out of me! :) and my mummy ;D for being soo Understanding. LOVE you all ;)

It may seem like the BIGGEST lie that I could ever tell but its true. FOR some people who dont know, NO ONE! can stop smoking at the exact time that it is being said. Like i cant say "OH I STOPPED SMOKING" and like just stop. Cause its an addicting and it takes time to stop. In my case, i am given 2 months and hopefully I'll be over and done with it, if not just being a light cigg junkie. maybe i should try "Nicotine Pacthes"? haha! maybe not.

It'll be easy to stop! but unless SOME big Jackasses LIKE someone! IM NOT GIVING ANY NAMES... ehemzmehemzz'alan'ehemazzzahmez Keep pissing me off. I cant.

well here goes my attempt to stop ;) wish me the best of luck!

think abit ^o)

Sorry I havent been updating but this was on my mind.

I dont know what to do.. seems like everything is falling into pieces. I thought I could get away, but found out that You had your ways to get me. Im kinda lost and I didnt want You in the picture, but I cant run away from you. You got me back without me even asking for it. Am i realising something...

I dont know.

[I feel lost, confused,pressured,heart-ached,lonely but i still can pull of a smile]

I miss you. ):

-bryantozozo

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